Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Trying to Count My Blessings

Some days its not so easy. Today was a rough day for me. Its the 3rd day of mind-numbing tiredness, and I'm starting to feel trapped. I can't explain the fatigue. I can barely move. I force myself to get out of bed and then sit and stare at tv. I AM thankful the nausea isn't too bad. Today was the first time in a long time that I've just wanted to quit. But I HAVE to finish this. I HAVE to fight this cancer. Thanks to everyone's prayers, I am feeling better tonight. I put a blurb on my facebook, and soon had several people praying for me and encouraging me. You guys have no idea how much your support means to me. I have 4 more rounds left. Right now that sounds like a lot to me! But its just 2 more months. I can do this.*sigh*
I really miss seeing my grandson, I miss doing the dishes (really!), I miss being a part of my kids' lives. Everything gets put on hold for a few days. I'm worried about Thanksgiving now. Don't think I'm going to be able to do it this year. I hate focusing on myself and my needs, but that's what I have to do right now. Only 2 more months.... I'm so grateful for my family. They are so good to me.
Brennan is still in the hospital. Rachel said he had a good day yesterday. He needs to eat more on his own. His little digestive system is still immature. Rachel said his little personality is starting to come through and he is a good baby! Keep up the prayers for Rachel, Ken and Brennan!
I also want to remind everyone of Jaren, serving our country in Basrah, Iraq. I am so proud of my son-in-law! We can't wait for him to be home. I want to have a Thanksgiving/Christmas party for him in Feb. when he is home with us.
Time for bed! I've actually been awake since about 4 pm, and am grateful the fog is starting to lift!
Thanks again for prayers and support. Words cannot express how grateful I am.

God bless you all,


  1. If you can't "do" Thanksgiving, that is perfectly okay. You can still celebrate the holiday on some level. Did you know you can order a prepared thanksgiving meal from the grocery store? Or family members or friends could help you in the kitchen. Our community has a free Thanksgiving meal, open to
    everyone.Originally, Ron was going to have to go to the hospital on Thanksgiving, but they are adjusting his chemo. He goes in the day before. Then he gets his pump discharged the day after. But, I don't think he'll feel much like eating. Our family lives out of town- we won't want to travel, and hosting it is too much work. Christmas looks like a bust, too. He has Chemo on 12/23. I've invited the family up for New Years Day. I will do a pot of soup and a pot of chilli; have them bring the appetizers,bread, cheese and dessert. Unfortunately, we have been in this position before. The first time Ron had cancer, he was in treatment for the holidays. So, we had our Christmas dinner a week early, (between rounds of Chemo). I let Ron choose the menu. That way he could have all the foods he wanted. It was nice. I hope I've given you a few ideas on how to work around the holidays. Don't stress out about it. You have enough to worry about. Take care and God bless!

  2. Tina, I'm reading this on Thursday and hoping that you are having a better day. Hang in there. I can't even imagine what you are goinng through - you are so strong. As far as Thanksgiving, it is way over-rated. I think we need to be thankful every day and who ever really liked dressing anyway! You can do this - don't give up now! We are all thinking about you and praying for you. Here is a thought for the day for you, "Hope is infinite, hope for joy; hope for love; hope for quality time. Hope is yours, reach out and embrace it." Thoughts and prayers are with you - Jeanne F.

  3. Some days really suck ... but better days are coming. That is what motivates me and I hope it does you.

    Thinking of you ...

  4. Tina, I am just reading this now. It is only one year of not being able to do the Thanksgiving thing. Your health is much more important than making a turkey dinner. You can make up for it next year...The idea of getting the dinner from the grocery store is a great idea. I bet it is delicious....I bet your Mom would love to make the Pumpkin Pie.
    Take care and we think of you daily and saying our prayers for you and Brennan..

    Love Mary

  5. Tina,
    We WILL be having Thanksgiving at your house so gussie up in your best pair of Pajamas and relax. The rest will be done for you.

    (It might be wise to have Tums handy, knowing how some of us cook.)