Some days its not so easy. Today was a rough day for me. Its the 3rd day of mind-numbing tiredness, and I'm starting to feel trapped. I can't explain the fatigue. I can barely move. I force myself to get out of bed and then sit and stare at tv. I AM thankful the nausea isn't too bad. Today was the first time in a long time that I've just wanted to quit. But I HAVE to finish this. I HAVE to fight this cancer. Thanks to everyone's prayers, I am feeling better tonight. I put a blurb on my facebook, and soon had several people praying for me and encouraging me. You guys have no idea how much your support means to me. I have 4 more rounds left. Right now that sounds like a lot to me! But its just 2 more months. I can do this.*sigh*
I really miss seeing my grandson, I miss doing the dishes (really!), I miss being a part of my kids' lives. Everything gets put on hold for a few days. I'm worried about Thanksgiving now. Don't think I'm going to be able to do it this year. I hate focusing on myself and my needs, but that's what I have to do right now. Only 2 more months.... I'm so grateful for my family. They are so good to me.
Brennan is still in the hospital. Rachel said he had a good day yesterday. He needs to eat more on his own. His little digestive system is still immature. Rachel said his little personality is starting to come through and he is a good baby! Keep up the prayers for Rachel, Ken and Brennan!
I also want to remind everyone of Jaren, serving our country in Basrah, Iraq. I am so proud of my son-in-law! We can't wait for him to be home. I want to have a Thanksgiving/Christmas party for him in Feb. when he is home with us.
Time for bed! I've actually been awake since about 4 pm, and am grateful the fog is starting to lift!
Thanks again for prayers and support. Words cannot express how grateful I am.
God bless you all,