Sunday, May 23, 2010

Saying Goodbye to the Left One....

Had a very busy weekend! Alyssa and Jaren had their vow renewal ceremony and reception today. It was soooo beautiful! I've been editing pictures and sitting with my feet up for the past few hours. Now its time to pack my bag and get ready for bed. (and can't forget to run the dishwasher!)
Because I've been so busy, I haven't had much time to think about tomorrow. And I really don't want to think about it now. What was it someone recently told me? Think of it not as losing a breast, but losing the cancer. That's what I'm trying to do. I think if I were to think about it too much I would really start crying. I can't even put into words why its so upsetting. It just is. But on a lighter note, I've been able to joke about it at times too. And the hair loss. Should make for some funny stories, eventually.
Well, off to bed now--I have to get up by 6 am! Surgery is at 9am. Thank you to all who will be praying for me tomorrow. I will be thinking of that...
Love and God bless!
Tina

2 comments:

  1. Tina good luck tomorrow. Don't worry you will come out of this just fine.It's a little scarey but I will have you in my prayers.
    I'm following you next month to have my other breast removed.

    Try and get a good nights sleep! We will be waiting to read your blog..

    ~ Alli.xx

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  2. While I was talking to God today, I told him I was sad that my sister had to go through this. But as he's done to others in the past, He told me he understands. After all He had to watch as the Son was on the cross. "Okay,okay God", I said. You had it worse. I could never withstand that kind of pain. So in the end,I said instead, "I thank you Lord, that Jesus rose up from the dead." The Lamb of God died for us, so we can rest in His peace and plan. Still I tried to argue that Tina's had enough. And once again He reminded me He loves her more than I. "I know it's true, I know it's true, but still it hurts so much." He said to me, "I'm here for you and for her, so turn to me with all your needs."

    Jeremiah 33:3 Call to me and I will answer thee..."

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