Yesterday was Mother's day, and it was a very nice day for me! Hope it was for all the other moms out there too. The good side of not having chemo last Wed. is that I wasn't sick and I didn't have to wear a scarf and mittens! It was chilly, as usual, for our annual picnic. Today was nearly 70 and sunny, while yesterday was only 54, and that came later in the afternoon when the sun finally came out! Other than the cold, it was a perfect day! Started with flowers and cinnamon rolls from Rich, then church, a picnic, a nap, watched a movie with Lyss and Rich, then a little reading time before bed--Perfect!
I'm still a little...hmmm...not sure what...disappointed(?) that I didn't have chemo, and I'm not sure why. I didn't expect to have problems with my immune system this soon (I've only had 2 chemo treatments), and that worries me. Does that mean I'll have more problems, and more setbacks? Having a weakened immune system is a scary thing. The doc didn't tell me to take any precautions, but now I wonder if I should have(beyond obsessively washing my hands and using hand sanitizer). Apparently my counts were pretty low. Also, I keep saying how I really have to let go of the guilt I have about messing up everyone's schedule, but I'm not sure I have let it go...something to pray about tonight, I think! I do feel, now, that God is in control, and that comforts me.
So, while I feel good, and I'm grateful for that, I still feel a little off. Not quite as cheerful as I usually am the last few days before chemo. Can't explain it tho.
On to happier news! Rachel heard the baby's heartbeat last week, and tomorrow she has another ultrasound. I'm so excited to be a grandma!
Alyssa hears from Jaren almost everyday, and he might get his 2 week leave in June. He is doing well in Iraq, altho its usually 110-115 degrees each day! She has finals this week, and then this semester of college is done! Alyssa has been such a blessing to me--she takes good care of me, and helps around the house.
Shonna is relieved to be done with her AP tests. Last week was stressful for her. If she does well (which I'm sure she will!) she'll get college credit for 2 classes. Her job at the library is going well, and she often picks up others' shifts--she likes the money! She has also had a few paid photography jobs, and has more lined up.
This coming Wed., I'll go to the cancer center again and hopefully be ok to get chemo! Alyssa will be taking me this time because Rich has someone flying in from AZ for a meeting. He didn't think he'd need this Wed. off--it was supposed to be in between treatments. He feels bad, but I reassured him that I'll be fine. It is sort of sad--its the first time he won't be with me. I'm so spoiled! I am happy to have Alyssa take me, though, because I kind of wanted the girls to have a chance to go with me at least once.
I want to say a big THANK YOU to DeeDee for sending another box of snacks over for the cancer center! The nurses are so grateful! And thank you to everyone who has been sending meals and gift cards GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!
Love and blessings to all!
A Bible verse I came across today during my study: Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9