Saturday, April 11, 2009

Post chemo update

Hey all,
Haven't felt much like updating...but we'll give it a shot!
Still feeling yucky. Not horrible, just total lack of energy, and a little nauseous most of the time.
Yesterday a male nurse came to the house to remove my pump. He did a good job, except he removed the needle from my port (which doesn't hurt at all) and then later realized he forgot to flush it with saline and shoot in some heparin (to keep blood clots from forming in it). He apologized and had to poke the needle in again. It hurts, but its over quickly, so not too bad. I hate it when they put the saline in! It has a horrible taste/smell that immediately makes me feel sick. The nurse said it helps to hold your nose, or smell something aromatic like a tea bag. Might have to try that next time! Other than that, I was happy to have the pump removed! During my 5.5 weeks of radiation I'll have to have that pump with me continuously--that's going to be a challenge!
I was feeling pretty good most of yesterday morning. After my pump was gone, I ate a little lunch and realized I was very tired and took a nap. Rich came home from work a little early and we got out for a nice walk. Didn't really feel like it, but it was nice to get some fresh air.
I always think a walk, or getting out for lunch (like we did today), or spending time with the kids will perk me up, but it really doesn't. It does take my mind of how yucky I feel, so that is good, but I feel like I'm just sitting around with a blank/tired look on my face no matter what is going on around me. I'm sure I'm not much fun to be around!!
Today, we went to see Rich's dad for a short a visit (Rachel and Ken came too), and then the 4 of us had lunch at The 50's Grill by Brookdale. I had a small burger, fries, and a piece of apple pie, and it all tasted good, but as soon as I was done the yucky taste was back. What I really want is ice water!!! Hopefully soon I can have some again. Then I WILL get that Peanut Buster parfait, and a raspberry smoothie, either from Caribou Coffee, or even better, Mrs. Fields. Its very hard to get the amount of liquid I'm supposed to drink, when I can't have anything cold. I'm having some cran-apple tea right now, and its good, but I STILL want something cold!
Now a little about Easter:
I want to invite anyone that doesn't have a church home to Bridgewood Community church. Its north on Lexington, past 109th, on the left. Services are 8, 9:30, and 11:15, and they will be serving continental breakfast from 8:30 to11. Or, if you've been part of a church, but just don't feel like you've connected, or you want to take your relationship with God to the next level, Bridgewood is an excellent choice. The people there go out of their way to make you feel welcome, and they really let Jesus shine through them. They walk the talk!
I love Easter! Without Christ's resurrection we would have no hope of eternal life. What a sacrifice Jesus made for us. Its unimaginable to me. And eternal life is given as a gift--while we are still sinners! All we have to do is say "yes" to the gift, and we will be forgiven and changed. There are still people who feel like they are unworthy, or they have to clean up their life first--we are ALL unworthy--that's what makes it such an incredible gift! Come as you are to the throne... you will never regret it! Amen! (Sorry, but I get a little excited about God's grace and mercy--He has been so good to me and forgiven me SO much!).
We will be spending tomorrow afternoon at my sister's house--oops! I forgot to buy the veggies and dip--I'll have to stop at the store after church and just buy the already prepared stuff. I usually like to cut it all up myself, but we'll make an exception this time :). Shonna is singing with the worship team at all 3 services, and I think we are going to the 9:30 service. Hope I feel ok! Might have to go to the later one.
Well, I hope everyone has a Blessed Easter! Thank you for your continued support and prayers. Please pray for my family too--esp. Rich. He has been an angel, but I'm sure 8 months of this is going to be difficult for him and the girls--God give them strength!!
Love and Blessings to you all!


  1. You and your family are in my thoughts every day. I spoke of you tonight at dinner. My husband, Phil, wanted to know how you are doing on Chemo and what the treatment plan is so I told him.

    I know exactly how you feel thinking you probably have a blank stare on your face because of the yuckiness in the mouth and tummy. People probably do not even notice. It does get better.

    May 27 it will be exactly one year since my last Chemo and it feels so good to be one year past treatment. I cried during dinner thinking about it.

    Hugs, Carol

  2. Oh ladies, you are going to get me all emotional and sappy. Tina - the blank stare - I still have it. Usually, though, it's because I am thinking about the many blessing I have.
    Carol - congratulations. I am so happy for you! I am coming up on my first anniversary of finding out I had cancer. I imagine it's going to be pretty emotional - I am already thinking about it.
    Sigh - the things we have to go through.